Saturday, July 30, 2005
For most of my life my relationship with God has been a priority. Basically, I have been searching for the answers to the questions:
Who/what is God?
Who am I in relation to God?
I discovered some time ago that the answers were not to be found in psychology, or "working through" a bunch of "stuff". Human psychology is, to put a quick and dirty label on it, a bottomless pit. This is because it is working in an area where answers are not to be found. It is looking deeper into the "ego" (a term that is used differently by people talking about spirituality than it is in psychology--in "spiritual" jargon, it means the aspect of a "self" that is NOT connected spiritual with God, but is made up of what we believe about ourselves and the world that we use to survive in the world we believe in) for a way "out" of ego-consciousness. A good workable philosophy is a better strategy than psychology.
Recently I've realized that any belief in the ego, or in me being what is called the ego, is a false belief. It comes down to this: There IS nothing but God. God is BEING... a verb. I could say that God is Intelligent, Loving, Being, because that is the nature (or part of it anyway) of God's Being. So, if God is everything (not IN everything, but actually BEING everything), then if I'm not seeing God in everything, it's because I am viewing the world "through a glass darkly."
To quote Raj, my teacher, "You are in the middle of the Kingdom of Heaven, and you are either seeing it for what it is, or you are seeing it through a glass darkly." The nature of the "dark glass" is my belief in the definitions I've given to each and every thing in my experience. To quote Raj again, "All that is needed to see the Kingdom of Heaven, to see God right where you are, is curiousity... curiousity to see the God there and let go of your definitions."
The first definition I need to let go of is the definition of myself as something seperate from God. Or, worse, something in contrast to God--the ego which must be overcome. God is Being. I am ALSO being. My role, which I can do right now, here, today, in this place, is to Be with God/Being and witness it. I am Being in Being. The Christ Consciousness is being consciously aware of the Being of God. I am the Christ, the Child of God, who walks with and in God seeing His Being for what It Is. It's difficult to write about, because the words conjure a "something seperate" that is "doing something". It's not like there is an outside-of-here God that is being something here. God is Being (and, for sake of clarity, will mostly be referred to as such from now on). AND, I (and YOU) are also being, but with a unique consciousness that can participate with and observe and appreciate the Being. I could say that it's as simple as Being WITH God, united in the joy and love of Being.
So, I'm letting go of "doing it my own way" using my definitions. I am dedicated to consciously living my life WITH Being. I am willing to give up all of my understanding, and allow for a new vision of Being. I am living a life of "curiousity" to see the love of Being in all, and to BE the love of Being.
This blog is a record of my thoughts and experiences on that journey, as well as a place where I can record insights, or questions.
Who/what is God?
Who am I in relation to God?
I discovered some time ago that the answers were not to be found in psychology, or "working through" a bunch of "stuff". Human psychology is, to put a quick and dirty label on it, a bottomless pit. This is because it is working in an area where answers are not to be found. It is looking deeper into the "ego" (a term that is used differently by people talking about spirituality than it is in psychology--in "spiritual" jargon, it means the aspect of a "self" that is NOT connected spiritual with God, but is made up of what we believe about ourselves and the world that we use to survive in the world we believe in) for a way "out" of ego-consciousness. A good workable philosophy is a better strategy than psychology.
Recently I've realized that any belief in the ego, or in me being what is called the ego, is a false belief. It comes down to this: There IS nothing but God. God is BEING... a verb. I could say that God is Intelligent, Loving, Being, because that is the nature (or part of it anyway) of God's Being. So, if God is everything (not IN everything, but actually BEING everything), then if I'm not seeing God in everything, it's because I am viewing the world "through a glass darkly."
To quote Raj, my teacher, "You are in the middle of the Kingdom of Heaven, and you are either seeing it for what it is, or you are seeing it through a glass darkly." The nature of the "dark glass" is my belief in the definitions I've given to each and every thing in my experience. To quote Raj again, "All that is needed to see the Kingdom of Heaven, to see God right where you are, is curiousity... curiousity to see the God there and let go of your definitions."
The first definition I need to let go of is the definition of myself as something seperate from God. Or, worse, something in contrast to God--the ego which must be overcome. God is Being. I am ALSO being. My role, which I can do right now, here, today, in this place, is to Be with God/Being and witness it. I am Being in Being. The Christ Consciousness is being consciously aware of the Being of God. I am the Christ, the Child of God, who walks with and in God seeing His Being for what It Is. It's difficult to write about, because the words conjure a "something seperate" that is "doing something". It's not like there is an outside-of-here God that is being something here. God is Being (and, for sake of clarity, will mostly be referred to as such from now on). AND, I (and YOU) are also being, but with a unique consciousness that can participate with and observe and appreciate the Being. I could say that it's as simple as Being WITH God, united in the joy and love of Being.
So, I'm letting go of "doing it my own way" using my definitions. I am dedicated to consciously living my life WITH Being. I am willing to give up all of my understanding, and allow for a new vision of Being. I am living a life of "curiousity" to see the love of Being in all, and to BE the love of Being.
This blog is a record of my thoughts and experiences on that journey, as well as a place where I can record insights, or questions.
# posted by IrishLad @ 4:06 PM 
